A Promise Kept

by

Janice Sagraves

 

This is for my mother who gave me the title and has read and enjoyed all my stories.

 

ONE

 

The tow-headed nine-year-old swiped at the tall grass with a dead stick and enjoyed his midday chore.  Many times he’d brought food to his father when he worked away from the house and the youngster was usually sent by his mother with his dinner.  He’d sometimes ridden his father’s other horse, but the animal wasn’t there, and he didn’t really mind since he enjoyed the walk which usually turned into a frolic.  He knew nearly every inch of the small spread since he’d explored most of it.  He glanced back at his father, who was eating one of the ham-filled biscuits the boy’s mother had sent by him.  He was in another world slaying dragons and the stick was Excalibur when his father’s voice brought alarm.  As he turned he saw the bull bearing down on him.  His young heart raced as he tried to run away but caught his foot and fell.  Suddenly, a sharp crack filled the air and made his ears ring.

 

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Adam Cartwright was at his father’s sturdy mahogany desk poring over a correspondence from business associates in San Francisco.  They were in the market for six hundred head of prime cattle to be delivered the following spring, but the price they were offering was way too low.  Some people seemed to forget that – whatever else it was – the Ponderosa was a business.  They didn’t raise some of the finest stock in the region and even the country just for the sport of it, and driving it where it needed to go was arduous and grueling.  But if you spent your work days in a plushy office and didn’t even have to fill your own ink wells it was easy to forget and often convenient to do so.  He’d put the letter aside and was getting paper from one of the drawers for a response when the front door burst open, and Joe Cartwright blustered in.

 

“Hey, Adam, you in here?”

 

Adam was annoyed by the intrusion, to say the least, and it showed in his dark hazel eyes.  “Yes, Joe, but I’m busy right now,” he said as he took the pen from its holder and dipped into the well.

 

“Well, I think you’ll be interested in what I found on my way back from fence mendin’,” Joe said as he stepped around and looked at his brother.

 

“Unless it’s an extra six hundred head of cattle we didn’t know about that we can afford to sell cheap, I doubt it.”  He sensed that Joe was still standing there, and when he looked up he couldn’t miss the sparkle in his little brother’s warm green eyes.  “Joe, why’re you grinnin’ like a mule eatin’ saw briers?”  He shook his head; he’d been around Hoss too long.

 

Joe glanced mischievously toward the front door as if looking at someone.

 

Adam’s mouth drew down.  “Joe, what are…?”

 

But the sentence went uncompleted as Lee Haymes came to stand next to Joe, hat in hand.

 

“Lee!”  Adam bounded from the green leather chair and came around the desk, his hand shooting out.  “Lee Haymes.  Well, you’re surely the last person I ever expected to see here.  It’s been what now, three months?” he said as he pumped the man’s hand.

 

“Close to it,” Lee said as his eyes roved around the room.

 

“Well, it’s good to see you.  And how’s that family of yours?”

 

A devious grin turned Lee’s mouth, and he glanced at Joe.  “You mean, how’s Kip?  Both he and his mother are fine, and he still talks about you.  He keeps wantin’ to know when Stretch is gonna come see ‘im.”

 

“I’ve been wanting to, but things have been rather busy and after…”

 

“Yeah, I know,” Lee said.

 

“But what brings you all this way?  I seriously doubt it’s just a social call.”

 

“You wait’ll you hear,” Joe said, his bright eyes dancing even more.

 

One would have been hard pressed or downright stupid to miss Adam’s quizzical expression.

 

“I’ve come to collect on that offer you and Joe made me for the cattle.  I know September’s a bit late, but I thought I’d go ahead and get ‘em settled on the range.”

 

“That’s a good idea,” Adam said approvingly.  “And come spring you should have a good crop of calves.”

 

“Uh-uh,” Joe said, about to bust, and gave the man a nudge with his elbow.  “Tell ‘im the rest of it, Lee.”

 

“I shot that bull, Adam,” Lee said, his eyebrows drawn down.

 

“You shot…?” Adam started as his jaw fell.  “I knew you got awfully mad at ‘im and even threatened to, but I never thought…”

 

“He charged Kip,” Lee said as his fingers tightened on the brim of his battered hat. 

 

A cool breath ran through Adam’s teeth and caught in his throat as he seized Lee’s arm.  “He wasn’t hurt, was he?”

 

“Nah, just got the wits scared out of ‘im and a few bruises and scrapes when he fell, but he wasn’t really hurt.  And all the rest of the day until he fell asleep that night that’s all he talked about.  For a week he just about drove us crazy with how I did for him what you did for Joe.”

 

“That boy,” Adam said with a shake of his head.  “I sure have missed him.  And Becky?  Beautiful as ever, I suppose?”

 

“Go on, Lee, tell it all,” Joe said with a wide grin and nudged the man’s arm again.

 

“Well, after nine years we didn’t think…”

 

Joe grabbed his brother’s arm, and his fingers dug into the flesh.  “Becky’s gonna have a baby, Adam!  A baby!  Isn’t that great?”

 

“It sure is, Joe.  How far along is she?”

 

“It’s started to show some through…”  Lee started as he gestured to his chest, but the words died as a rosy blush covered his face, and he ducked his head.

 

“Never mind,” Adam said with a furtive smirk and a wink at Joe.  “You can tell us everything at supper tonight.  And it’ll give you a chance to meet Pa and Hoss.”

 

“I do wantta meet ‘em, but I thought I’d stay at a hotel in town.”

 

“You absolutely will not.  You opened your home to me when I had nowhere to go, and this gives me the chance to return it.  We’ve got plenty of room, and it won’t cost you a thing.  And wait’ll you taste Hop Sing’s cooking,” Adam said and steered his friend toward the settee.  “Now let’s sit down and catch up until the rest of the family gets home.  By-the-way, how does Kip feel about the baby?”

 

“Oh, he’s all excited.  He hopes it’s a boy,” Lee said as he sat down, “so he can have a little brother, and it’ll be like with you and Joe.  And he can look after ‘im and save ‘im from charging bulls and drowning in the stream.”

 

“I didn’t almost drown,” Joe said as if wounded and parked himself in Adam’s favorite blue chair.  “I just thought it was a nice day for a swim.”  He giggled.

 

Adam watched his friend while he and Joe exchanged some words and laughed.  He was content to just sit there and let his mind reel back to the time he spent with this man and his family.  If not for Lee Haymes, Adam Cartwright would be lying cold in his grave right now with his father and brothers not knowing where he rested instead of enjoying life.  And whatever this man wanted or needed, the price would never be too high.

 

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There was no roast pork left on the platter, or little else, for that matter.  Between five men and with one of them being Hoss Cartwright it wasn’t surprising.  Hop Sing had gone back into his lair and left a large chocolate cake on the table.

 

“That was the first beef we’d eaten in a long time, and I don’t know where Kip put away what he ate,” Lee said.

 

“I learned a long time ago that filling a growing boy is nearly impossible,” Ben Cartwright said as he served him a slice.

 

“So what did you do with the rest of the meat?” Adam asked as his father handed him his dessert.  “I know you couldn’t eat it all before it went bad.”

 

“After what little bit I dried for jerky I took it into town and what I didn’t give to the Banning’s I sold to Tabler’s.  In spite of his bad temper, he made for some pretty good eatin’.  Fork tender, he was.”

 

“Well, if his disposition’d had anything to do with it he would’ve been tough as whang leather,” Joe said with a painful smirk as he rubbed his shoulder.

 

“And that brings us to why he’s here,” Adam said.  “Before me and Joe left we told Lee that whenever he got ready for it to come up here and we’d fix ‘im up with first rate breedin’ stock.  Paid in full.”

 

“Why I think that’s a splendid idea,” Ben said robustly as he passed a slice to Joe.  “How many head were you thinking on, Mr. Haymes?”

 

“I thought fifteen would make a good start.”

 

Ben took a piece for himself and gave the rest of the cake to Hoss.  “How does a hundred sound?  If your range’ll take them, and it’ll give you a better start.  You’re bound to lose some on the way and more through the winter.”

 

“I have the range, but…” 

 

“And of course you’ll need a bull,” Ben went on, “so tomorrow we’ll go pick him out.”

 

“Oh, no, Mr. Cartwright, I couldn’t possibly…”

 

“I think that’s a great idea, Pa,” Joe chimed in and stuffed a bite of cake into his mouth.

 

“Then it’s all settled,” Adam said triumphantly.  “You’re now the proud owner of one hundred head of prime Ponderosa cattle and one bull.  And I think we should drink to it.”  He lifted his water goblet.  “To Lee Haymes and the Triple H, soon to be four H’s.” 

 

“Looks like you’re gonna havta change your brand before you even get it on the cows,” Hoss said with a snigger and raised his glass.

 

“Yeah, it looks like,” Lee said and held up his glass.

 

They drank the toast and settled down to some serious eating and working out the details of the drive ahead of them.  And Lee’s eyes kept darting to Hoss as he wound in the cake.

 

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As promised, after breakfast the next morning Lee was taken by the Cartwrights to pick out a suitable bull that would become the head of his new herd.  He’d never been on a spread like the Ponderosa or met anyone quite like this father and his four sons.  As he watched from outside the fence a bull, the likes of which he’d never seen, was brought out.  He was well-muscled and sturdy and his dark red coat glistened in the morning light like new copper.

 

“His name’s Strawberry, but not because of his color, he likes to eat ‘em,” Ben said as he rested his hands on the top rail of the fence.

 

“You’re, kiddin’?” Lee said with a skeptical scowl.

 

“Nope,” Hoss said.

 

“So what do you think?” Ben asked as his eyes went from the animal to Lee.    “Is he suitable?”

 

“Suitable?  I’ve never seen such a bull,” Lee said with awe.  But as he looked around disappointment cast over his face.  “But I can’t take him.”

 

“All right,” Ben said strongly, “if he’s not good enough we’ll just keep looking until we find one that is.”

 

“Oh, no, that’s not it; he’s the finest bull I’ve ever seen.”

 

“Then what’s wrong with him?” Joe asked, puzzled.

 

“Not one thing.  I have no doubt he’s your best, but I can’t let you just give ‘im to me.  And along with one hundred head of cattle, well I just can’t let…”

 

“Mr. Haymes,” Ben said as he put a firm hand on the man’s shoulder, “if not for you my oldest son would be dead.”  Ben’s eyes darted lovingly to Adam.  “And nothing I can ever do will be enough or too much, so let me give you this bull or any one that you want.  Now if you aren’t satisfied with him we’ll get you another one.”

 

Lee looked at each one of them then turned back to the magnificent animal being offered to him.  How could he want more?  He knew that this was the best of the best, and he didn’t need to look any further.  He’d shown an act of compassion and mercy and it was being returned to him.  To turn Ben Cartwright down would be to throw it back in his face, and, besides, he really did need the stock.  His amber eyes danced as he looked at this grateful father and nodded.  “I’ll make sure he gets a good home, Mr. Cartwright,” he said as he held out his hand.

 

A handshake sealed the deal and Strawberry became the beginning of a new start for Lee Haymes and his family. 

 

TWO

 

It had been decided that night that they would head out the next day.  And while the trip from the Ponderosa to Bantree only took three days – sometimes four – they figured on longer this time.  So, early that crisp Wednesday morning Ben Cartwright, his three sons, Lee Haymes, Hop Sing driving the wagon, six men, one hundred head of cattle, one bull and a thirty-five-horse remuda started out.

 

It wasn’t quite ten o’clock and they’d been on the trail for roughly three hours.  The golden globe of the sun was gradually climbing toward its zenith that would be noon and the first dinner stop of the drive.  Leaves were just beginning to turn and the grass was still summer brown, in fact that season still lingered, though the heat was toned to a moderate warm.

 

The hooves of the animals and the wheels of the wagon churned up dust that plumed from the ground.  Adam was riding drag with Lee Haymes and Wes Fulmer for the first day out.  He’d thought it would be a good time for him and Lee to talk since Ben – as trail boss – was up front with the wagon.  Joe and Hoss had point and Chris McCutcheon and Ray Styles were riding swing and Earl Deevers and Grant Aikman had flank.  Dave Sandridge trailed along off to the left with the remuda.

 

Sport and the roan Lee was riding ambled on as the cattle plodded along in no real hurry.  Adam took the canteen from where it hung around the horn and pulled the bandana down and took a good swig.  “I hate riding drag.” he said and another took a drink.  “But I thought it’d be a good opportunity for us to talk some more.”  He re-stopped the canteen and hung it back then pulled the bandana back up to keep the dust at bay.

 

“This is my first drive,” Lee said through the kerchief tied over his own face as he shifted his butt in the saddle.  “We came from Ohio when Kip was just about two and settled where we are now.  I’ve never had enough cattle to drive or hands to help me, and there ain’t much call for that sorta thing there.”

 

“No, I don’t guess there is.  But what made you decide to come out here?  Granted, it’s beautiful country, but I hear they have some pretty nice in Ohio.”

 

“Back there I was workin’ for my father, and I was never in love with clerkin’ in a store.  I know there’s not a thing wrong with it, but I had a wife and baby to take care of and the pay wasn’t much.  That’s why I still lived with my folks.”  Lee grinned beneath the mask as he caught Adam’s look and it betrayed itself in his eyes.  “I know, I’m not makin’ as much now as I was then.  But we can grow our own food, and the Good Lord gives us abundant game and water and plenty growin’ out wild.  And I want much more than city life for my children.”

 

“Sounds like Pa,” Adam said with a hidden grin.  “He wanted his to put down roots where they could spread out.  Where God’s Own Beauty surrounded them and they could share in his dream.  But sometimes I think I’d like something a bit more civilized.  I’ve been shot and shot at, had run-ins with Indians and rustlers and others that’d like to do me harm, and I’ve almost been hung for something I didn’t do.  And to cap it all off I was beaten and left for dead and didn’t even know who I was.”  He laid a hand on Lee’s shoulder.  “And maybe someday I will go, but for right now getting your cattle to your range is the priority.  Now let’s spread out a little before Pa comes back here and tells us to.”  He slapped Lee on the arm and brought the chestnut around and put some space between them.

 

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They’d made good time – better than they’d expected, trail herding cattle – and they stopped for the night near a stream that ran through trees in places.  Ben had decided that they would come this way rather than go along the main road.  Even though the other way was closer to the Haymes’ place, this route afforded a better source of water, and that was a valuable commodity on a cattle drive, even a short one. 

 

Adam hadn’t been able to miss the fact that his little brother had grown sullen and pensive and pretty much kept away from everybody.  Joe sat with his back against the trunk of an oak as his brother approached with two tin plates and cups. 

 

“Hop Sing’s really outdone himself tonight,” Adam said as he reached his brother his food and coffee, but when Joe didn’t acknowledge it he put them on a flat rock.   “Chicken hash, and for dessert dried apple cobbler.”

 

But Joe hardly seemed to notice as his brother sat down next to him, bending his long legs up in front of him.  His eyes were directed out across the water and into the land and hills that lay beyond.  Adam dug in and the grub was hot and rejuvenating, but his steady gaze never left Joe.  He’d seen something troubled in the young man’s face when he first sat down, but he had no way of knowing what was bringing about this unrest.

 

“Talk to me, Joe.”  But Adam got the impression that he wasn’t even heard.  “Joe,” he said as he gouged his brother with the handle of his spoon. “Talk to me, buddy.”

 

Buddy.  Did he have to call him that?  Joe felt all the grief from three months ago churn up into his throat.  He’d thought he was well over that, but this was proving him wrong.  The pain was as fresh as it had been that day not long enough ago.  He felt his brother’s fingers on his arm and heard the rich baritone say his name.    

 

After several seconds Joe finally looked around at him, and the sadness in his deep emerald eyes nearly choked Adam.  He could sense the pain lurking in their depths and it stifled his appetite.  He’d seen his brother distressed before, but never like this.   “Tell me what’s wrong.  You know I’m always ready to listen.”

 

“I’ve been here before,” Joe said as he looked back across the stream.

 

“Of course you have, we all have.  And it’s the same place it’s always been.”

 

“Not for me.  I nooned here when I…”  He crossed his arms over his chest and his fingers dug into the soft green fabric of his jacket.   “This is where I stopped that first day when I was on my way to Bantree when you… when we thought you were… dead.”

 

Now the implication of the thing hit Adam like a blunt object.  His brother was remembering one of the most heartbreaking times in the history of the family.  June had been a nightmare that it seemed there was no waking from, and it had very nearly destroyed them all.  He couldn’t imagine what it had been like for his father and brothers, but now he was seeing a part of it.  He put his plate on the rock and took a firm hold on Joe’s arm.  “What we lived through was something terrible that no human being should have to.  It tried to swallow us all, but you’ve got to get past it, Joe.”

 

Those haunted green eyes came around again.  “Have you?”

 

Adam hadn’t thought that much about it, in fact, he’d tried not to think about it at all.  He’d returned home to those who loved him and with their help had picked up the pieces of the shattered man that was Adam Cartwright.  But now the whole thing was being forced back on him.  When he’d first seen Lee three days ago, he’d been careful to let his mind stay on the time he’d spent with him and his family, but now his thoughts were on the darker aspects of what had happened.  And now he was looking into the anguish-ridden face of someone else who had been affected.  Even though it was gut wrenching to see his little brother this way, at least he didn’t feel so alone, as he sometimes did.

 

“I thought I had, but I guess I was only fooling myself.  You don’t get over a thing like that so quickly.  I know that I wasn’t the only one that almost died, and I know that I never want to be the cause of such pain for my family ever again.”

 

“No,” Joe said sharply and his eyes were like razors.  “No, you don’t blame yourself for that.  And remember that if we didn’t care for you so much we wouldn’t’ve been hurt so bad.  So don’t you dare take the blame, and if you ever do I’m just gonna havta haul off and hit you.”  A sardonic grin crooked the corners of his mouth.

 

Adam could see some of the angst melt away and felt his own go with it.  A smile or a grin pasted onto his little brother’s lips always had a way of easing the anguish.  He took Joe’s plate from the rock and handed it to him.  “Here.  Now eat before I havta take a switch to you.”

 

“All right, Pa.

 

Adam poked him again and started back in on his own food and realized that it tasted even better than it had before.  Joe and Hoss had a way of doing that for him, and he was glad to have that part of his life restored to him.  He watched as his brother ate, but he couldn’t miss the hint of a dark something still skulking behind the emerald façade.  Something that he knew would always be there, something that – through no fault of his own – he’d put there.  

 

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Ben awoke with a start, though he couldn’t really be sure what had awakened him.  He had an uneasy feeling that he usually attributed to when a son was in trouble.  He rubbed the sleep from his eyes and they went straight to his eldest son’s bedroll, but Adam wasn’t there.  Then his eyes traced to where Joe was, and his youngest was thrashing about with his brothers hovering around him.  Lee Haymes and all but the two men riding night watch were nearby, one eye on the boss’ son and the other on the herd.

 

“Joe,” Ben said as he crouched next to Adam, and he couldn’t miss the cautionary look he got from his oldest son.

 

“Joe, wake up,” Adam said soothingly and placed a gentle hand against his shoulder.  “It’s all over, and I’m right here.”

 

“No, I can’t go through this again!  Please, leave ‘im alone!  Don’t hurt ‘im!”

 

Adam continued to say his little brother’s name, and his fingers tightened.

 

“Adam!”

 

“I’m right here, buddy.”  Joe’s left hand shot out and Adam instantly caught it in a steel grip.  “Joe, I’m here.  Nobody’s hurt me, and I’m not going anywhere.”

 

Joe’s eyes were suddenly wide open and it was obvious that whatever he’d been dreaming continued to stalk him.  He looked right at Adam, who still held his hand, and his body went limp.

 

“It’s all right now,” Adam said with a side glance at their father.  “He just had to get it out of his system.   Didn’t you, Joe?”

 

“Yeah, Pa,” Joe said with a tired grin and swiped at his sweaty hair.  “I guess it’s just been a long day, and I’m tired.  You all can go on back to bed.  I’ll be all right.”

”You sure, son?”

 

“Yeah, Pa, I’m sure,” he said as he gave his father’s arm a slap with his free hand.  “You too, Hoss.  I’ll be all right now.  I mean, it’s not like I haven’t done this before.”

 

Ben smiled and gave his son a reassuring pat then got to his feet.  Joe was right that he had indeed done this before, but this was the first time since Adam had gotten back and it concerned him.  “All right, boys, let get back to bed, we’ve got a long day ahead of us tomorrow.”

 

“Is he all right?” Lee asked as his eyes darted to Joe.

 

“He will be.  This is nothing new with him.  Joe’s a bit more high-strung than the rest of us and what he can’t work out through the day sometimes comes at him when he goes to sleep.  Now you’d better turn in, Mr. Haymes.  And don’t worry, he’ll be fine.”

 

Lee remembered when he’d seen another Cartwright son go through the same thing, but he wasn’t going to say anything.  Those had been of a more violent nature, one in particular.  He rubbed his jaw at the memory.  “Good night, Mr. Cartwright.”

 

“Good night, Mr. Haymes.”

 

Ben watched as the men returned to their bedrolls, then turned back to his sons.  Hoss had already gone back to bed and Adam continued holding his little brother’s hand.  His boys had always been close and – except for one time last year when Reagan Miller had caused a rift between Adam and Hoss – nothing had ever worried him that they would drift apart.  Adam had always been fatherly to his two younger siblings and Ben was glad for the return of that nurturing presence.

 

Finally, Joe was asleep again, and Adam felt like it was all right to leave him.  He watched his little brother and remembered how he’d been comforted by Joe those nights in the Haymes’ barn and it felt good to be able to return some of it.  “Good night, Joe,” he whispered and relinquished his hold on the treasured hand.

 

“He’ll be all right now,” Adam said as he came to his father and glanced back at Joe.  “I suspected this was coming.  This place holds some bad memories for him.”

 

“So that’s why he was so quiet all evening.”

 

Adam nodded.  “He just needed to work ‘em off is all.  Like I did with the headstone.”

 

The vision of Adam wailing away at the piece of rock with a sledge hammer until he collapsed in Hoss’ arms from exhaustion roared back at him.  His sons had been through a lot as of late, and he’d thought they were pretty well over it, as much as anyone could be, but this filled him with doubt.  And if Joe was keeping things hidden what about Adam and Hoss?

 

“He’ll probably sleep through the rest of the night, and I suggest we turn in and try to do the same.”

 

“What about you, son?  Is there anything you’d like to talk about?”

 

“I’m all right, Pa, honestly.  A man doesn’t go through what I did and come out unmarked on the other side, but I think I’m over the worst of it.  But if I don’t get some more sleep I’m gonna be a grouchy headed old bear.”  He shook his head.  “I’ve got to spend more time away from Hoss.  Good night, Pa.

 

“Good night, son.”  Ben watched as he got bedded down and felt a nagging grow in the back of his head.  It had been there for some time, but tonight had only augmented it.  Adam had changed, in some ways subtle and in others not subtle at all, though he was still the same old Adam for the most part.  He’d developed a more fun loving nature, yet the sparks could still light those dark eyes, and the innate stubbornness remained, and that temper still lay dormant beneath the surface waiting to be aroused.  “Are you, son?” he whispered in his head. “Are you really, or do you only think you are?”

 

THREE

 

Joe’s breakfast had all the flavor of sawdust.  His head thumped and the smallest sound seemed to rattle around inside his skull like marbles and make it worse.  

 

“Mornin’, Joe,” Chris McCutcheon said merrily as he plopped down on the ground next to him and ruffled his thick caramel-colored hair.  “It’s gonna be another nice day, looks like.  And I’m hungry as a bitch wolf.”

 

“Look, if you wantta be cheerful can’t you go someplace else and do it?  I’ve got a head the size of Hop Sing’s wagon.”

 

“I’m not surprised after the night you had.  You scared me out of a year’s growin’.” 

 

Joe shot him a cutting look. 

 

“All right, if it’ll make you feel better I’ll just set right here and eat quiet.” 

 

“Thank you, I’d like that.”  Joe took a bite of biscuit and it went down in a lump. 

 

“Mornin’ you two,” Hoss said brightly.  “Mind if’n I join you?”

 

Joe just groaned and hung his head.  “No, go right ahead.  There’s plenty of room for everybody.  Why don’t you go get Chubb and Dunny?  And you can bring Sport and Buck along for good measure.  And how about the whole remuda?”

 

“What’s the matter with you this mornin’?” Hoss said as he sat next to Chris.  “You act like you don’t wantta be bothered.”

 

“Now you’re getting the right idea,” Joe said with a sarcastic sneer.  “I came over here for some peace and quiet and suddenly the whole camp’s here.”

 

“Ah, Joe, it ain’t no sucha thing.  It’s just me ‘n Chris.”

 

“Fine, then you can have it all to yourself.  I’ll just go someplace else not so crowded.”  Joe bounded to his feet, but as he did he ran square into Adam, knocking his cup from his hand.  His plate was pushed up against his chest, and he wound up wearing its contents.  Adam just looked at the mess, and his eyes slowly rose to his little brother’s face.  “In a hurry, Joe?”

 

With only a grunt and no words of explanation Joe threw his plate down and stomped off.

 

“He’s touchy as a mother bear this mornin’.  He still bothered about last night?” Hoss said as he wound in a bite of fried egg.

 

“It’s this place, but he’ll be all right when we get moving again.”  Adam looked down at himself as he pulled his plate away and most of the food fell into the dirt.  “I guess I’d better go load up again.”

 

Adam’s long legs wound him back to the wagon where Ben was filling his own plate.  The coffee brown eyes couldn’t miss the look on his son’s face and some of the food still clinging to his coat.  One eyebrow rose as he took a biscuit.  “Joe?”

 

“How’d you guess?  But don’t worry it was an accident this time.”

 

“Are you sure he’s all right?  He’s not usually like this after one of his nightmares.”

 

“It’s not the nightmare it’s here.  It’s the bad memories locked up in it from when he came to Bantree back in June.  But like I told Hoss, he’ll be all right when we get going again.  He won’t have time to think about it.”

 

“I hope you’re right.  I don’t like to see my son’s this way, but if you’re sure…”

 

“I’m sure, Pa.  Now why don’t you go get settled, and I’ll be right there, and we can talk.”

 

Ben agreed, but he watched Adam for a few seconds before turning.  He was still disturbed about this one and now Joe had been added to the mix.  Adam glanced up at him and smiled as he poured himself another cup of coffee.  Ben couldn’t understand why his disquiet had settled in so heavily this drive, but something that hadn’t explained itself bothered him, and he knew it had to do with his sons.

 

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The bright morning had turned into an overcast afternoon, and with the swallowing of the sun the air had become nippier, and coats provided welcome warmth.  The wind that blew and riffled in the trees and grass had a sound to it that every man who’d ever driven cattle knew well.  And that sound could fill one with a dread that few others things could because it portended a drover’s worst nightmare: stampede.  That little nicety of trail herding could happen at any time, but a thunder storm could trigger one and drown or electrocute a man at the same time. 

 

As Adam had said, once they were underway again Joe’s unrest and snappishness seemed to evaporate, but just in case, Adam rode drag again but this time with his little brother.  The dust was as bad as it had been the day before and while bandanas kept it out of mouths and noses the eyes were at its mercy and it chafed and irritated.   It filmed every inch of a man and his horse and closed in on everything like a brown fog.

 

As they moved Adam had gradually edged Lee Haymes’ big dapple closer to the little paint, and the action wasn’t lost on Joe.  He knew exactly what his brother was doing and it made him grin inwardly.  Once was the time when it would have rankled to have Adam hanging around him like an overprotective shadow and trying to be discreet about it.  But since that day when Lee Haymes’ bull had come close to turning him into a pincushion and Adam had put himself between the charging beast and his little brother, things had changed.  Even then the need to shield his family had been strong, though he hadn’t been aware of it, and that day Joe had counted his blessings that he was there.

 

“So do how do things look up ahead from your side?” rang Adam’s clear voice as the gray came alongside Cochise.

 

“Fine.  But I don’t care for the looks of that sky,” Joe said as his eyes darted up.

 

“Yeah, I know.  And it’s more like rain every minute that passes.  But maybe it won’t do more than give us all a good wetting.”

 

Joe gave him a skeptical frown.  “I wish I had your confidence.”

 

“It’s not confidence, Joe, it’s hope, strong, fervent hope.  I’ve seen too many herds stirred up by too many thunderstorms to want to see another one.  And, besides, I’m getting too old for this.”

 

“Old?  You?  Never,” Joe said with a chuckle.  “Now me, on the other hand.”

 

“Not in anybody’s wildest dreams,” Adam said, and his eyes sparkled like a child’s on Christmas morning.  “In that respect you’re too much like Hoss, and there’s one that’ll never grow up.  Now I’m gonna get back into position, and if you need anything or if anything looks outta kilter you just give me a signal.”

 

“What kind of signal?” Joe asked teasingly.

 

“You’ll think of something, you’re a clever boy.”  Adam flashed a toothy grin that had – in recent weeks – become more common and slapped Joe on the arm.  He wheeled his horse and cantered off to the other side.

 

Joe giggled and shook his head.  He was glad that Stretch had decided to stick around, if only in bits and pieces.   He put a facet to Adam that made him an absolute joy to be around, and brought out a kind of playfulness that the family had always known lay sequestered beneath the surface and came out all too infrequently and with restraint when it did.   “Boy,” Joe said with mock disgust under his breath.  “I’ll show ‘im.”  He gave Cochise his knees, and they moved to the outer fringe of the herd.

 

+++++

 

The sky had lightened only slightly but it was enough to build hopes that the rain would hold off until they reached their destination.  A wolf howled off in the distance and it didn’t do a whole lot to calm men or cattle.  The horse’s ears were pricked and their eyes were wide and alert and nostrils flared and sniffing.  All anyone needed was a pack of hungry wolves prowling around looking for a meal and stirring things up.  They would have to keep on their guard, especially after dark, which wasn’t that far away. 

 

They would be stopping before too long and Hop Sing would get things fired up for supper.  It was always a guessing game among the men – the brothers included – as to what the little cook would present them with.  Adam had always seemed to have the uncanny knack of getting it, though many of them, most especially Hoss and Joe, figured that he got inside information.  And when asked how he knew he’d only wink craftily and say that he had his ways.  But nobody really cared as long as it was hot and filling since, by the end of the day, they were hungrier than any wolf.

 

The cattle ambled on aimlessly and the men had to fight against fatigue and boredom.  After staring at the rump end of a cow or the back of a horse’s head for hours on end it was bound that both would set in.  And when a man lost the edge he knew that he could easily lose his life.

 

When Adam wasn’t talking to someone he recited poetry or sang under his breath or worked on mathematical or engineering problems.  His family had always known that his mind was the more complex of the Cartwrights and what interested him bored his brothers to tears.  Joe liked dime novels while Adam preferred Shakespeare, and Hoss built houses of cards while Adam did architectural drawings for the real thing, including their home.   So for Adam, a cattle drive gave him the chance to sharpen and hone his intellect when he found himself alone and not otherwise engaged.

 

By the time they made camp things had gotten even chillier.  The sky had become even darker than before, though the more hopeful ones attributed it to the fact that the day was coming to a close while the rest saw it for what it was. 

 

Adam sat on a large rock eating Hop Sing’s current fare, rabbit stew and cornbread.  His eyes were directed ahead at nothing in particular as his spoon automatically went from plate to mouth.  So deep into his musings was he that he wasn’t aware that his father was watching him from back by the wagon.  Ben’s own spoon carried on the same repetitive motions as his son’s, and his eyes never left his eldest.

 

“Somethin’ wrong, Pa?  Pa?”

 

Ben’s head jerked around, and he found himself looking into Hoss’ uneasy blue eyes, and his fingers clenched on his father’s arm.  “What, son?”

 

“Is somethin’ wrong?  Your mind was miles off.”

 

“No, nothing’s wrong.  I was just watching your brother,” Ben said and looked back at Adam.

 

“You know, sometimes it’s like I don’t even know ‘im no more.  Joe says it’s this Stretch feller, and I havta kinda admit that I like ‘im, but it just ain’t Adam.  An’ sometimes I catch ‘im just lookin’ off like he is now.  It’s almost like he’s someplace else….  Well, I’m gonna go settle myself down an’ eat.  You can join me if’n you want to.” 

 

“No, son, you go on,” Ben said, but his eyes never left Adam, and he was only mildly aware when Hoss left.  “You’re right, Hoss, he is someplace else, and I wish I knew where.”

 

+++++

 

The new moon had been three nights earlier so it was still plenty dark and the furious shadowy clouds only made it more so.  It was cold and men huddled in their bedrolls while the first two on watch tried holding their eyelids apart.   Adam and Wes volunteered.  They went to the makeshift rope corral and got a night horse.  Adam chose a sprightly bronze-colored mare named Nugget and Wes saddled up a big bay called Cyclone for his speed.  

 

The cattle were bedded down, and Adam’s soft baritone floated on the air as he sang in French a Creole ditty that he’d learned from Marie when he was a teenager.  His warm voice not only soothed the cattle but also had the same effect on the men rolled up in their blankets.   It had gotten dark as pitch, and he relied on his pony’s eyesight – sharper than that of a day horse – to get around.  It was black enough that a man could get lost if he had a mind to.  Lost.  Sometimes Adam thought it would be nice to lose himself someplace where no one knew him or knew where he was, but after the experience that his family had just come through he couldn’t do that to them.  Still, he’d like to just be able to get away.  In recent weeks his usually unsettled nature had become more restless, and he couldn’t really explain why.  When he was a boy he’d gotten used to always being on the move as they made their way toward their new home.  And even after they had settled on what would become the Ponderosa, there still had been plenty to do and explore.  But now he was thirty-four, and he knew the vast spread like the back of his hand.  

 

He took his hat off and ruffled his heavy black hair and looked into the beckoning void beyond as his own voice filled his ears.  It would be so easy to simply ride away and disappear into the night.  “Nah, that’d be foolish,” he thought between verses.  The wounds were still healing, and he felt this would pass, but he wasn’t sure and that bothered him.   “Maybe someday,” he muttered as he finished the song. 

 

FOUR

 

The next morning was as bleak and quarrelsome as it had been the day before, and even those hopefuls from the previous evening didn’t need any convincing.  Everybody could see what was coming, unless it changed its mind, as it was want to do out here.  But knowing their luck this would not be the case this time.

 

The smell of bacon wafted around them and made bellies grumble as they realized they were empty.  Mingled in with it was the aroma of strong coffee and wood smoke.

 

Adam poured some of the black brew into a cup and took a bracing slug.  Maybe it would take some of the chill out of his bones from sleeping on the cold, hard ground.  He scratched his head then smoothed his hair back and tried rolling some of the stiffness from his shoulders.

 

Hop Sing bustled around the side of the wagon with a sack of flour as Adam leaned close to the sizzling skillet and sniffed.  “That sure does smell good.  It about ready.”

 

“It be leady when I say it leady, now you go away.  Boy just get underfoot.  Now shoo.”

 

Adam snickered and grinned wickedly then went to the campfire and sat down on one of the logs that had been pulled around it.  He wrapped his hands around the cup and let it warm them as he watched the last efforts of the dying flames.  

 

“Don’t move, Adam,” Lee’s tense voice sounded behind him.  “There’s a rattler on the log next to you.”

 

Adam gulped hard and froze solid and slowly let his eyes go down to his left, moving his head as little as possible.  Sure enough, there it was coiled no more than a few inches from his hip, warming itself in front of the fire.  His heart raced and his breathing was trying to catch it.  “All right, now what?  If I move I’m bit, if I don’t I’m bit as soon as it gets around to it.”

 

Lee eased around in front of him – his gaze locked on the impending threat to his friend.

 

“Mornin’, Adam, Lee,” Hoss said robustly as he came toward them.

 

“Not so loud,” Adam chastised, still not moving, and his eyes never leaving the snake.

 

Hoss’ brow pulled into a frown.  “What’s the matter with…?”  But the words died as soon as he saw what was going on.

 

“Hey, what’s goin’ on?  You three look like you’ve seen a ghost,” Joe said brightly.

 

“Joe,” Hoss hissed through gritted teeth.

 

“What did I do?”  Then he saw the peril his brother was in, and his hand went instinctively to his gun.

 

“If you do, Joe, you’d better hit it, because if you don’t, and I’m bit,” Adam warned, “when I’m able I’ll shoot you.  And I won’t miss.”

 

“No, Joe,” Hoss said as he seized his little brother’s arm.  “Lee, git me one o’ them pieces of wood outta the fire.”

 

Lee took a kerchief from his coat pocket and wrapped around the end of one of large sticks protruding from the flames.  He handed it to Hoss, who held it close to the reptile.  Gradually, its coils started to loosen and breaths were held as it began moving toward the greater warmth.  Still, Adam didn’t budge as Hoss led the snake to the other end of the log and away from his brother.  When it was a safe distance from him Hoss grabbed it behind the head and gave it a fierce sling.  “All right, Adam.”

 

Adam felt all the air leave his lungs as he groaned.  He dropped his cup and slumped forward against his legs, burying his face on his knees and letting his long arms fall limp at his sides.   Sighs and nervous titters ran around him, but he took no notice. 

 

Joe sat on the log and placed a hand on Adam’s back.  “Just be glad you didn’t sit on it, brother.  I mean, who would’ve been brave enough the suck out the poison?  Certainly not me.”

 

Piercing hazel eyes rose and bore into Joe.  “Ha, ha, very funny, Joe.  Next time remind me to laugh when you find yourself in a dangerous situation.”    

 

“What’s so amusing this early in the morning?” Ben asked innocently as he stepped next to Hoss, and all attention came around on him. 

 

“Adam almost sat on a snake,” Joe said with a rascally grin.

 

“You’re kidding, right,” Ben said with disbelief.

 

“No, Pa, he’s not kidding,” Adam said as he jerked to his feet.  “And the next person that makes a joke about it is gonna get shot.”  He eyed each one of them then stomped off. 

 

Hoss, Joe and Lee exchanged wicked looks, and then the laughter started.  Now that the danger was passed they could see the humor in the thing.  Ben appeared uncertain if he should laugh or not and the corners of his mouth simply turned.

 

+++++

 

Adam was riding point today with Ray Styles, and he wasn’t in a talkative mood, but – unfortunately – Ray was a talker.  He ran on and Adam let him alone, but he didn’t hear a whole lot of what he was saying, his mind was too busy plotting.  He’d heard Lee and his brothers laughing as he trounced off.  He didn’t really blame them, but it would’ve been different if they’d been on the business end of two inch fangs.  He wasn’t a vindictive man, but their insolence couldn’t go unpunished. 

 

A breeze blew across his face and Sport jerked his head.  Adam gave him a pat on the neck and knew he smelled the rain too.  He was more certain now than before that it was on its way, and if it didn’t come today it would definitely be here tomorrow.

 

“Adam.”

 

He looked around at the sound of his father’s voice, as Ben came in alongside him.  Adam couldn’t miss the sense of urgency in the deep coffee eyes.  “What is it, Pa?”

 

“We’re in a bit of a dip here, and if it starts to rain, especially as hard as I’m afraid it’s going to, we don’t want to get caught here.”

 

“You think maybe we oughtta head in the direction of the road now?  I know there isn’t as much water over that way, but it’s more level, and if it rains,” Adam glanced up, “we’ll have plenty.”

 

“And if we get caught here we could find it rushing in on us, and that’s not a position I want to find myself in.”

 

“I agree that we’ll probably have enough to worry over, particularly if we get thunder and lightning.”

 

“I’ll go tell the others,” Ben said then wheeled around and headed back past the herd.

 

The unsettled feeling that Adam had been experiencing the last two days intensified, and his stomach wadded.  It wasn’t like he’d never been caught in a storm while on a drive before; in fact that was probably why he was so nervous now.  A heavy breath ran through him and his muscles clenched.   He’d heard stories of men being lightning struck, drowned and trampled, and he’d seen his share, and the thought of it happening again didn’t exactly fill him with delight.  But he was surrounded by seasoned, experienced drovers – with the exception of Lee Haymes – and he had a good, dependable mount beneath him.  Still, even the most skilled men on the best horses could get into trouble.

 

The day progressed slowly and things didn’t get any better, as far as the weather was concerned.  It didn’t appear to be getting any worse, and that was a plus, but it remained threatening enough to keep tensions high.   The cattle had become more restive and touchy, and the men knew it wouldn’t take a whole lot to set them off, so they would have to be on their guard all the time.

 

By the time they stopped for the evening and so that Hop Sing could get supper started the sky had turned into a maelstrom of swirling black clouds and things had definitely gotten worse.  Men and animals settled down as much as they could with this going on over them.  And doubts that this would hold off until tomorrow were becoming more concrete.

 

The enticing smell of food lured Adam to Hop Sing’s wagon, but not for the same reason it did the others.  He had a scheme cooking in his fertile brain, but in order to carry it off he would need to enlist the aid of the little cook.  Hop Sing was grumbling to himself in Cantonese as he mixed together the batter for the corn cakes.

 

Adam strolled around behind him and peered over his shoulder, his hands clasped around something and hidden behind his back.  Hop Sing shot him a cutting look as he continued with his task.  “What you want?  Stand back,” he said as he gave Adam a push.

 

“I was just curious about what you were doing,” Adam said and looked guilefully at him.

 

Hop Sing tilted his head to one side as his eyebrows lowered.  He knew his boys well, they had been in his charge since they were children, and he recognized that this one was definitely up to something.  Since Mista Adam’s return home a playful side to him had emerged that Hop Sing had always suspected was there but that had been keep hidden away in a secret place. “You look like cat in birdcage.  What you up to?”

 

Adam’s mouth drew down deviously.  “You heard what happened to me this morning?”

 

“You almost set on snake,” Hop Sing said as a wicked light burned in his obsidian eyes and a grin flirted with his mouth.

 

“There were those who thought it was funny, though needless to say I wasn’t amused,” Adam said clandestinely as he moved closer to Hop Sing and rested one arm on his back.  “And I think they need to be taught a lesson, but I’m going to need help.”

 

Hop Sing watched as he brought his other hand from behind his back and held out a small box between them so that no one else could see.  He looked into his boy’s eyes and caught the mischief alive there and knew instantly what was being asked of him.  Mista Adam had come to him for help in carrying out his plan, and this he couldn’t resist.  Without another word Hop Sing only nodded.

 

“Good man,” Adam said and gave him a slap on the back.

 

After everyone was settled with their food Adam stood back by the wagon waiting for the action to start.  His eating was done by rote for his eyes never went to his plate.  Hop Sing was facing toward him as he dished up some stew for himself.  Hoss, Joe and Lee were sitting together, no doubt reveling in Adam’s mishap from that morning, for he could tell that something was mighty humorous, though he couldn’t hear what they were saying.

 

Joe was the first one it hit.  His throat and mouth were aflame, and his eyes watered.  He tried to talk but found that his voice had been eaten away.  Something to drink, he had to have something to drink.  He grabbed his coffee and guzzled but it only intensified the inferno.

 

Lee was next as hot seemed to attach itself to every nerve ending in his body.  He couldn’t see through the film of tears that covered his eyeballs.  Even his lips were pure, unadulterated fire, and it felt like the hairs in his nose were singed.  

 

Hoss had eaten half of his before he realized he was burnt to a crisp.  He jerked to his feet, and the remainder of his meal hit the ground.  Water, he had to find water and jump into it head first and mouth wide open.  In his life he’d never tasted anything so hot.  It was like biting into a burning log.

 

It was obvious to anyone watching what was going on and who the perpetrator was.  The other men thought it was riotous and Ben tried hard not to laugh.

 

As the three seriously incinerated men turned around they caught sight of Adam.  He stood with his arm across the little cook’s shoulders – both grinning broadly – and it was clear that they were in cahoots.

 

Joe’s eyes glittered like wet emeralds as he caught sight of his oldest brother with that self-assured smugness that Joe had come to expect from him.  Again he tried to talk but still nothing came out.  He stomped over to Adam as Hop Sing backed off to a safe distance but continued to watch.

 

“Yes, Joe,” Adam said sweetly.  “Gotta problem?” 

 

Deflated.  Adam’s demeanor punctured Joe and let all his hot air out.  He couldn’t hit him now and, oh, how he wanted to.  But instead he spun around and went off after Hoss and Lee who had gone in search of water.

 

Ben got up and went to his oldest while the uproarious laughter from the hands still spread across the countryside like a wave.  “Adam,” Ben scolded mildly.  “Or should I say Stretch?”

 

“He who laughs last, Pa,” Adam said and resumed his meal.  But in his mind he seriously doubted that this was the last of it, not if Joe had any say in the matter.

 

FIVE

 

The next day boded the storm that was on its way.  It was darker than ever, and the wind had picked up and twisted in the trees.  The cattle moved along grudgingly and the cowboys did the same, only more so.  The drag riders kept stragglers moving as they flicked their ropes which stung the animal’s rumps and prodded them on.

 

Joe was on a lanky, zebra dun riding flank with Grant Aikman.  He could see his oldest brother up ahead in swing with one of the other men.  His mouth was still tender from the night before, and he was glad because it was a potent reminder.  He owed Adam in a big way for what he’d done and the discomfort he felt kept him on track.  Hoss and Lee had taken it for what it was, a joke, but Joe wasn’t so inclined to do so.  Breakfast had been a painful experience when the black pepper in the gravy only incited his sensitive tongue and gums.  But whatever he did had to be fitting for the offence, and he wanted it to be before they got back home so that the men could witness Adam’s humiliation just like they had his.

 

Hoss was riding drag with Chris.  He couldn’t miss how Joe had looked at Adam the night before and it bothered him.  His little brother had a hot Southern temper, and he’d never liked being laughed at.  He knew that what Adam had done had been a form of retaliation in response to their laughing at him over the snake.  But it hadn’t been meant to humiliate anyone; it was simply a joke and a way to liven things up.  He feared, however, that Joe wouldn’t take it that way.  And he also feared what Joe’s retribution would be.

 

Ben was worried, but these days – where his sons were concerned – that had become his natural state.  Adam’s little prank from the night before hadn’t gone over well with his youngest.  Hoss and Lee had talked to him about it, and he knew that they held no ill will toward Adam; in fact, after they had recovered they even thought it was funny.  But not so with Joe, he had stewed around all morning and couldn’t even look at his oldest brother without a vengeful light shining in his eyes.  When they stopped for the evening he would talk to Joe about it and hope that he got through, but for today he would give him the chance to work it out for himself.

 

Adam knew that he’d better be on the alert.  He hadn’t missed the fire in his little brother, and he guessed he wouldn’t take his insult lightly.  And knowing Joe the way he did he knew it wouldn’t be pretty.  He turned in the saddle and looked back at his brother riding the little black they called Rocket.  They made eye contact briefly but Joe looked quickly away.  Adam turned back around and shook his head.  How Joe could go from being your best friend to your worst enemy and right back again perplexed him and always had.  But it usually burned itself out fairly quickly so he wasn’t alarmed about it.  He grinned and urged the cattle on. 

 

+++++

 

They were long out of the dip and closer to the road that led straight to Bantree when they stopped for the noon break.  As always the men ate in shifts, with two mounted and staying with the herd while they settled down to rest and graze.  Adam decided that it would be a good idea if he kept watch while Joe had his dinner then went in when his little brother came out.  As they passed he caught a sharp green glance and saw that Joe still hadn’t cooled down.  But knowing him the way Adam did he figured it was only a matter of time.

 

Adam stepped down and led his horse, a stout little buckskin with an eel stripe down its back, over to the temporary corral and got his gear off of him then went on to the wagon.  “I sure could use a cup of coffee, Hop Sing,” he said as he walked around back.

 

“You know how to get.  Hop Sing busy.” 

 

Adam could tell by the look on little man’s face that he was only about half serious.  He filled a tin cup from the battered pot and wrapped his hands around it.  The steam rose into his face and brought with it an aroma that always had the ability to comfort.  “Look, I’m sorry I got you into that last night.”  He took a good drink and watched Hop Sing over the cup’s rim.  “I certainly don’t want Joe mad at you.”

 

“Him not.  Him mad at you.”

 

“I know.”  He sighed and took another drink.  “It was only a joke, but maybe I did go too far.”

 

“No,” Hop Sing said sternly.  “They make funny when Mista Adam almost get bit in butt…”

 

Adam snorted and spluttered as the coffee tried going down the wrong way.

 

“…and you not let them get away with it so men not lose trust in boss,” Hop Sing went on.  “And if Mista Joe too much of little boy to see that you only play prank and not mean harm then he have trouble, not you.  I glad you come to Hop Sing for help.”

 

Adam grinned crookedly.  “Thanks, Hop Sing.”

 

Hop Sing returned it and then it quickly dissolved.  “Now you go eat before food get cold.”

 

Adam loaded a plate then went off with it and his coffee.  He found a spot to himself and sat down, crossing his long legs.  The food was hot and satisfying and beans hadn’t tasted so good in while.

 

“Mind some company?”

 

“Not at all, sit down,” he said as he glanced at his father.

 

“It’s been a good drive,” Ben said as he sat by his son and rested his plate on his legs.  “I figure tomorrow we should make the Haymes’ spread.”

 

“Yeah,” Adam said as he gave him a wary look as he took a bite.  He’d known his father too long to be taken in by his lack of concern.  He swallowed.  “All right, Pa, out with it.  I know you didn’t come over here just to bore me with idle chitchat.”

 

Ben looked at him straight and couldn’t miss the intelligent spark in the dark eyes.  He’d never been able to hide anything from Adam, and his son made him feel like an open book.  That was a part of his life that he’d so sorely missed and it was good to have it back.  “All right, I’m worried about this thing with your youngest brother.”

 

“I guessed as much.  Well, don’t be, Pa, he’ll cool down.  He always does.”

 

“How so sure?  If I know Joe, and I do, he feels like his big brother was trying to make him look silly.  And you know how Joe has never liked being laughed at.”

 

“Well, now Hoss and Lee don’t see it that way, and I believe that Joe’ll come around just like he always has in the past.  It’s just gonna take him a little longer.  The fuse burns hot, but it doesn’t burn long.  And Joe is, after all, a grown man.  He’ll figure it out, only you have to let ‘im.”

 

“Yeah,” Ben said with a snicker, “I guess you’re right.  Sometimes I have to stop and remind myself that all my sons are grown men and try not to meddle.”

 

“You don’t meddle, Pa, you intervene.”

 

Ben looked up from his plate and saw the mischievous child alive in his son, and it made him laugh.

 

As Joe rode his slow, clock-wise circle to Wes’ counter clock-wise around the outer perimeter of the herd he watched his father and eldest brother in conversation and sharing a meal and laughter.  And as he did images forced their way into his mind’s eye.  He saw Pa as he’d been when they thought Adam dead, the drawn, disheveled figure with dark smudges under deep-set eyes, and the tears.  And what about that one terrible day when he’d seen that body in the back of the wagon, its face obliterated by a shotgun and believed it to be his son?  There had been no laughter then and it was good to see it on Pa now.  And then there was Adam.  His heart ached at the remembrance of those black, gut-wrenching weeks when they thought he was gone from all their lives and there was nothing any of them could do to bring him back.  The corners of his mouth turned up and a warm radiance glowed in his heart as he recalled finding his brother again and the day he remembered who he was.  That was the day that Joe would have been gored, possibly killed, if his big brother hadn’t been there doing what he always did, watching after him.

 

His hand tightened on the reins, and he stifled a snort lest he startle the cattle.  He would let Adam have his little joke.  He knew his brother, and now that the fog of anger had dissipated, he could see more clearly.  But that didn’t mean he was off the hook.  Joe still had a score to settle; only now there would be no vindictiveness attached to it.  Now it would simply be two cowboys who happened to be loving brothers having at each other and relieving the boredom of the trail.

 

+++++    

 

An hour later they were on the move and the cattle had become more skittish.  The men’s senses had grown more acute since it didn’t take a whole lot to touch them off.  The snapping of a twig or the fluttering of a bird close by or even something as simple as a cowboy lighting a smoke could act as a catalyst.  As unpredictable as the storms that could sometimes incite them, stampedes were a constant threat that stayed in the minds of the drovers from the beginning to the end of any drive.

 

Adam had switched positions with Joe and changed horses.  He was once again on his beloved Sport and it was good having his longtime companion under him.  He reached out and gave the big chestnut an affectionate pat on the neck, and the horse responded, his head bobbing up-and-down as if nodding his approval.

 

This time it was Joe that looked back and Adam couldn’t miss what was in his little brother’s face.  He’d been forgiven his misdeed, but the half crooked smile and shining eyes also told him that he’d started something that Joe intended to finish.  One eyebrow rose in reply, and he hoped he got his message across.  “Come ahead on little brother, I’m ready for you,” he said under his breath then he added, “I think.”

 

SIX

 

After they were done with their supper Adam and Chris started for the remuda to get their night horses.  Adam was saddling Nugget when Joe’s voice made him look around, though he continued with what he was doing.  He just stood and watched Adam go about his task as if waiting for his brother to speak first.  “Something I can do for you, Joe?”

 

“No, I just wanted to be with my brother before he starts his watch.  Nothing wrong with that, is there?”

 

“Not one bit,” Adam said as he brought the left fender up and put across the saddle’s seat then began fastening the cinch.  “But I know you, and I can always tell when there’s something on your mind, so why don’t you just tell me what it is?  Time’s a wastin’.”  A broad toothy grin spread, and he gave a tug.

 

Joe glanced at the ground and dug the toe of his boot into the dirt.  “Well, I guess I just want to apologize for the way I acted, is all.  I’m sorry, Adam.  I behaved like a hotheaded brat who can’t take a joke, and I made myself look sillier than you did.”

 

“I won’t argue with you on that,” Adam said as he brought the fender back down and turned to Joe.  “But I wouldn’t worry too much about it.  Anybody who knows you knows that something like what I did is like dropping a lit match into a bucket of kerosene.  There’s gonna be an explosion.”  He put a reassuring hand on Joe’s shoulder.  “But I couldn’t let you three laughing about what happened go unchallenged, especially since word got around.  You see, if a man doesn’t stand up for himself others are gonna think he’s weak, a bad thing for somebody who handles other men.  And since I got back I’ve noticed the way they watch and treat me.  They’re wondering if I’m the same person and part of me is, but, Joe, a part of me was awakened, a part of me that I kept hidden away most of the time and kept on a tight rein when I did let it out.” 

 

“Stretch?”

 

“If you want to call it that.  What happened made me realize that no matter how much hurt we go through in our lives it’s not enough to warrant our not being ourselves.  You don’t know how many times in the past I’ve wanted to get in on the fun with you and Hoss but was simply afraid to.”

 

“Afraid?  You?”

 

“Yes, Joe, me.  I was afraid of my actions being misunderstood.  Sure I let my defenses down a few times and it always felt so good, but afterward I always wondered if it had been taken wrong.  I see now that my reasoning was all skewed.  When I was with the Haymes’ and all the bad memories that made me pull away were gone, that was the real Adam, the one that wasn’t afraid to live life, the one that started out west with Pa.  But somewhere along the way he got lost and it took losing myself for a while to turn me around and open my eyes.  So you come at me with all you’ve got.  I’ll be waiting.”  He reached out and tousled his brother’s thick dark brown curls.  “Now I’ve got to get to work or Pa’ll skin us both.”  He slipped his foot into the stirrup and eased up into the saddle.

 

“Thanks, Adam,” Joe said as he came closer and rested his hand on the mare’s neck.

 

“Don’t mention it.  I mean, what’re brothers for?”

 

Joe stepped back as he turned his horse and headed off with Chris.  For the first time in, maybe ever, he felt he understood his oldest brother better.  He was more like his brothers than he’d ever let on before or, more to the point, they were like him and it made Joe feel good.  He’d always loved and respected Adam, but he didn’t think he’d ever been as close to him as he was right at that moment.  “Thanks, Adam,” he whispered then went in search of someone he could engage in a few hands of poker before turning in.

 

Ben sipped his coffee as Joe walked past him and he watched his son, then his looked back to Adam as he started his night watch.  He could see that Joe’s anger had blown itself out, just as Adam said it would.  He took another drink and went to rejoin Hoss, there was no need for the talk with Joe now. 

 

+++++     

 

Adam and Chris were just less than two hours into their three hour shift when the nightmare came.  A bright yellow streak split the black starless sky like an enormous cleaver, striking the ground mere inches from where the cattle had bedded down.  As one they rose as the rain let loose with a force that could take a man off his feet.  Thunder sounded like a colossal shotgun that shook every living thing to its marrow and shattered the night like a rock hurled through a pane of glass.  Adam spun Nugget around sensing more than seeing what was happening.  Another bolt nearby splintered the top of a tree, driving the already frightened cattle to frenzy.  His eyes darted to Chris and met with the deep teal ones filled with fear.

 

The ground rumbled as the herd broke and Ben’s voice sounded loud and clear, “All hands!”  Everyone scrambled up and made a mad dash through the dark for their night horses.  Saddles were thrown on hastily since they were already bridled in case of just such an emergency, and all were mounted in record time.  The three best riders, being Adam, Joe and Chris, rode hard to get out in front of the stampede.  While they did this the others pushed in from the opposite side to turn the herd.   

 

Adam was leaned forward against his horse’s neck to produce as little drag as possible.  The wiry bronze chestnut’s hooves hammered the ground, and her mane stung his face and eyes as it snapped in the sodden wind.  The rain continued in a sheet, driving against horse and rider as if trying to push them back.  Adam lost his hat, and his hair was instantly matted to his head, the usual black wisp pasted to his forehead.  His heart beat up into his mouth as he saw the mass of horns bearing down on him, but he had to keep going.  He’d seen Chris and his youngest brother closing in behind him, and he was glad they were there.

 

Joe was directly behind Chris and could see Adam off to their left and ahead of both of them as the lightning lit up the world like a bonfire.  For a split second he saw his brother look around as his mount beat forward to get ahead of the thundering mass.  Joe dug his heels into his horse’s sides and shot ahead of Chris.

 

Chris saw Joe surge past him from the corner of his vision as they rode like madmen.  The rain pelted him like eggs and – if not for the brim of his hat pulled down in front – would have blinded him.  His clothes clung to his body like a layer of skin, and his feet sloshed in his boots.      

 

Hoss had lost sight of his brothers in the madhouse that surrounded him as he came in on the lee side of the cattle.  The heat from their closely packed bodies cut through the cold rain and reached him like he was standing before a hot stove.  The big horse he rode drove on as Hoss slapped the reins against his neck and urged him forward.

 

Ben was at the front of the men trying to get the cattle turned.  He knew that Hoss was behind him, but in the driving rain and dark he’d lost his other two sons.  Another bright flash, and he caught sight of Joe, but he still didn’t know where Adam was.  He couldn’t dwell on it though, not now, there wasn’t time.

 

Lee had never seen a stampede before, let alone been this close to one.  On starting out Joe and Hoss had told him what to do if the unthinkable should happen.  He continued pressing in on the herd as the others were and hoped he didn’t make a mistake and his horse kept its footing.  For what if he got killed?  What about Becky and Kip and the baby?  He pushed such thoughts from his mind and continued riding in on the herd.  

 

As Adam came around the point Nugget stumbled, and he new that if she went down that could very well be the end of both of them.  He leaned back in the saddle and tugged on the reins in an effort to keep her head up, allowing her to get her feet under her again.

 

Joe’s heart stopped and his breathing with it.  Adam’s horse was falling!  He wanted to do something but even if he got stopped what could he do?  Get between him and this tempest of horns and hooves and die to protect him if need be.  He glanced back to the undulating sea of animals next to him, and when he looked back Adam wasn’t there.  In his panic he didn’t realize that he’d passed his brother.

 

As Joe and Chris rode in on the leaders the herd turned in on itself.  The other riders continued to push in and the cows began to circle and mill.  This was the most dangerous time of any stampede for if a horse and rider should be caught in among the tightly packed animals he could be jostled from the saddle.  The end result would be an agonizing death beneath their grinding hooves.  And when that happened usually very little was left by the time they passed over the body.

 

So focused on what he was doing, Chris didn’t see the tree with the low hanging branch, not even when he rode dead into it and was jerked from the saddle.  He was slung to the ground and hit hard, and as he did wrenching agony ran though his left shoulder, and the pain deafened him to the resultant pop.  As he managed to turn onto his back the rain splattered in his face, and he wasn’t lucid enough to wonder where his horse was.  Then, from the blackness, came a warm voice and gentle hands, and the thought that he’d killed himself and was in Heaven entered his mind.

 

By the time the cattle were driven the three miles back to their bed-ground the storm had settled down to a steady, soft rain without the accompanying thunder and lightning.  The exhausted men dismounted their equally exhausted horses and sought out the boss.  Now came the time of assessing the damage and finding out if anyone was missing, since before there hadn’t been time.

 

As the men gathered around Ben, Joe pushed his way through, and he could see at once that his son was desperately upset.

 

“Pa, I can’t find Adam.  I saw his horse falling.”

 

“Take it easy, Joe,” Ben said as he gripped the young man’s shoulder.

 

“But I can’t find ‘im.  And I can’t find Chris either.”

 

“We’re right here,” said a weary baritone.

 

As everyone turned, Cyclone ambled in and was stopped near them.  Adam was in the saddle and Chris was on behind him, leading a limping Nugget with his good arm.  The other was tied against his chest with a lariat, and he looked as bedraggled as his companion.   Adam slid to the ground and gingerly helped him down.

 

“Chris, you all right, boy?” Ben asked.

 

“He’s all right, Pa,” Adam said as he riffled his wet hair.  “He had a dislocated shoulder, but I managed to pop it back into place.”

 

“And the next time you tell me you’re gonna count to four before you do it I wish you would,” Chris said as he grimaced.

 

“All right, Chris, I’ll remember that,” Adam said with a slanted grin.  “Now why don’t you go on to Hop Sing and let ‘im fix you up proper?”

 

“All right, Boss.” 

 

As the men dissipated the family gathered around Adam.

 

“What happened, son?”

 

“Nothing much,” Adam said as he stepped to Nugget and began stroking her wet neck.  “We almost fell and by the time we got righted the herd had turned and everybody was headed back so I started out behind you.  That’s when I found Chris’ horse then found Chris laying there in the rain.  He wasn’t hurt bad except for that shoulder, and I knew if I didn’t get it back in place then it’d swell that way, so I snapped it back.”

 

“Yeah,” Hoss grumbled.  “An’ you told ‘im you was gonna count to four an’ jerked ‘is arm when you got ta two.  You know, Adam, I think you always enjoyed doin’ that.”

 

“Now how can you say such a thing?” Adam said and raised one eyebrow.  “You know me.”

 

“Yeah, brother, I know you.”

 

“I’m glad you’re all right, son.”  Ben rested his hand on his son’s soggy back and smiled tiredly.

 

“I’m glad we all are.”

 

Ben gave him a smack then he and Hoss joined the others.  Joe had remained quiet the whole time, and his eyes never left Adam.

 

“You haven’t said a word, Joe.  You mad at me again?”

 

Joe went to stand in front of him then – without warning – he threw his arms around his brother and crushed him close.  The tears stung, and his eyelids dropped.  For the second time in so few months he’d thought Adam had been lost and it was good to feel him alive in his arms, though quite waterlogged.  It was amazing how the loss of someone could open a person’s eyes, but by then it was too late.  Joe had been given a second chance, and he wasn’t going to throw it away because of petty anger or his hotheadedness.  Life was too short and Adam was too cherished.

 

As Joe stepped back Adam couldn’t miss the relief in the deep green eyes and saw a light he hadn’t seen there since before he left for college.  Still without a word, Joe gave him a slap on the arm then walked away.

 

“Well, what do you know about that, girl?” Adam said as he patted Nugget on the jowl.

 

For the first time in ten years since his return from Boston, Adam felt that the relationship with his little brother was close to what it had once been.  It had been so long since Joe had hugged him that way that he’d forgotten how good it was.  He looked up into the rain and felt warm in spite of the cold that clung to his body like thick mud.  “Thank you,” he said softly then turned to the horse and led her and Cyclone back to the rope corral.

 

SEVEN

 

Everyone anticipated that this would be the day they finally reached the Haymes’ spread and were able to shed themselves of these mangy beeves.  Ben had promised a night in Bantree once they made their destination, and the men could spend their newfound pay any way they saw fit.  And with ten saloons and other establishments there would be no dearth of recreation.  With plenty of libations under their belts things could get a bit lively as it always did when cowboys blew into a town at the end of a drive.  Even though this had been a short one and not a protracted affair like usual it hadn’t been any different, and with the added attraction of a stampede, the men needed to cut loose.

 

The cattle plodded along, and the men did the same, their enthusiasm as damp as they were.  They had gotten into dry clothes but boots and hats were still sodden and the air hung heavy around them.   Earl Deevers had found Adam’s hat and returned it to him.  The inner band was clammy against his forehead, and it was still soaked from lying out in the downpour most of the night.  He was riding point with Chris today per special request that his father had gladly granted.

 

“How’s the shoulder holding up?” Adam asked as he brought Sport over alongside Dunny.

 

“It hurts like blazes, but it coulda been a lot worse so I ain’t complain’.”  He shifted in the saddle.  “Your pa says we’ll probably get to the Haymes’ spread sometime today.”

 

“Probably, if we don’t have anymore stampedes.”

 

Chris winced.  “That ain’t even funny.”

 

Adam snorted and looked sheepish.  “Sorry, I couldn’t resist.”

 

They rode quietly for a couple minutes.  “Last night when I loosened my hinges and was layin’ there about to be drownded, I thought I’d done gone and killed myself.  I woulda said I’d broke every bone I had, it hurt so bad.  Course, I was too shook to think that you don’t ache like that in Heaven.  And then you come along, and with that purty voice of yours I thought an angel had come for me.”

 

“Take my word for it, Chris, I’m no angel.”

 

“You were to me.  Course, you did play a bit of a dirty trick on me, sayin’ you was gonna count to four…”

 

“I know, but I figured springin’ it on when you weren’t ready it wouldn’t hurt so bad.”

 

“You can take my word for it, it did.”

 

“I’ll remember that,” Adam said with a roguish gleam in his dark hazel eyes. 

 

“Boss, I been thinkin’ on somethin’, and I’m not sure how to ask it.”

 

“Just come out and do it,” Adam said with a shrug.  “No sense beatin’ around the bush about it.”

 

“I been thinkin’ that when we git to the Haymes’ place I could stay on there for a little while.”

 

Adam watched him intently with one eyebrow raised.

 

“He don’t have anybody workin’ for ‘im,” Chris went on, unaware of Adam’s intense scrutiny, “and it’d give my shoulder a chance to heal up before I…”  But the words died out as he looked around at Adam.  “What?”

 

“And on Saturday nights go into town and visit with Amelia a little?”

 

Chris sniggered and shook his head.  “I ain’t never been able to put anything over on you, have I, Boss?”

 

“That’s why I’m the boss.  But that’s not a bad idea.  You could help Lee with his new cattle until he’s able to hire somebody.  I’ll talk to Pa about it.  Now I’d better get back into position.”  Then he winked at the boy and put some distance between them.

 

Long about noon they could see the fork in the road when they stopped.  Hop Sing got things going, and it was beans and cornbread for dinner.

 

Adam loaded his plate and filled his cup with strong, black coffee and went to where Lee was sitting off to himself.  “Mind if I join you?”

 

“Not at all,” Lee said and shoveled a bite into his mouth.

 

Adam parked himself on the rock – dried by the sun and wind – next to Lee.  The ground was still plenty damp and there were few things as miserable as a wet butt in a saddle.  “Well, you’ll soon be home.  I don’t have to ask if you’re getting excited because I know I would be.”

 

Lee’s watched his face over the rim of the cup as he took a drink.  “I know you are.  It means Kip.”

 

“Yeah,” Adam said as one side of his mouth crooked.  “I sure have missed that boy.”

 

“And he’s missed you.  When you were stayin’ with us he thought you hung the moon and still does.  When I told him I was going to the Ponderosa he wanted to come with me.  Said he could help me drive to cows back home, but I knew the real reason.”

 

Adam glanced at him as he swallowed a bite of bread.  “We were the best of friends.  Living out like this with no other children for some way, and then out of the blue comes somebody that doesn’t have any friends, or a name and a home, for that matter…” he shook his head and glanced back toward the fork.   “We’ll soon be to the spot where you… found me.”

 

“And not a day goes by that I regret it.  I’ve always believed that I was sent to find you.  If I’d drove on by I’d been no kind of a man.  I did the Christian thing because a man needed my help, and if he’d died I would’ve given him a Christian burial with the proper reading from the Good Book.  But I thank the Good Lord every night that he didn’t.   I’m not sorry for what I did, and I never will be.  You’re my friend and because of that I’ve gotten to know your fine family.  Even Siddon Banning paid me a visit.”

 

“Siddon?  What did he want?”

 

“He wanted to talk about my selling beef to the lumber camp.”  He snickered.  “One thing about Mr. Banning, he’s plain spoken.”

 

“He is that.”

 

“He told me up front that because of me you were still alive, and he owed me a debt that could never be paid off.  And I thought it was a pretty fair deal until he told me how much they’d pay a head.”  Lee pushed his hat back and a glimmer of shock returned.  “Thirty dollars for each animal, and I about fell over.  I figured ten or fifteen, but that was too good to be true.”

 

“Yeah, well, one thing Siddon isn’t is stingy with his money.”  Adam giggled at the thought of his friend and dug into his beans.

 

“That he sure isn’t.  And, needless to say, I jumped at it.”  He ducked his head.  “That’s part of the reason I come for my cattle now.  I figured the sooner I started getting my herd built up the sooner I could start supplying the camp if some of the cows were already carrying calves.  But I hadn’t thought about your father being so generous.”

 

“You were generous to me,” came Ben’s voice from behind them, “and I was generous in return.”  He came around in front of them.  “Siddon was right about the debt.  No amount of money or cattle or anything I have to offer can ever repay what you did for me and my sons.  Now, I wasn’t trying to eaves drop, I just came to tell you to eat up so we can get moving.  I figure you want to get home to that wife and boy.”  A broad smile lit his face, and he gave Lee a slap on the arm and left them. 

 

“Your father’s a fine man; in fact I don’t think I’ve ever met a finer one.”

 

“I know I haven’t, but I’ve met some awfully good men in my day.  We’ve just been talking about one of them, and I’m sitting next to another.”  Lee started to say something but Adam cut him off.  “Now, we’d better finish up here before we have to be told a second time.  Even good men don’t care for doing that.”  He grinned and nudged Lee with an elbow as he popped the last bite of bread into his mouth.

 

Lee watched him as he took his plate and cup back to the wagon and felt an inner glow that only special things brought about.  When Becky had told him about the baby, the way his son looked up to him, and now knowing this man that had come to him in a time of such desperate need.  “And I’ve been sitting next to one too,” he said as a soft smile turned his lips.  He took down his last two bites of food and slug of coffee then followed him.  He had to get home to Kip and Becky and the baby.

 

It took them about twenty minutes to get everything packed up and fresh horses saddled and finally get the cattle moving again.  As they passed the fork and headed along the road that would take them to the Haymes’ place Adam went cold as a vile face came before him, bringing dark recollections with it.  He looked down at the ground where he’d lain so close to death and could almost see the blood on the blades of grass.  His fingers knotted on the reins, and he had to force himself to look away.  As he turned his eyes up the road, the image of a fair-haired little boy that was the very picture of his mother replaced that vicious, grinning jackal.  Soon he would see his young friend again and the sweet, beautiful Becky and his heart began to beat faster with anticipation.  He gave his horse his knees and picked up speed and eased in closer to the cows.

 

+++++

 

Kip fidgeted in his chair at the dining table like his britches were filled with hundreds of crawling, biting ants.  He’d barely knocked a hole in his dinner, and his glass of milk was hardly touched, and his eyes kept darting back toward the door.  His mother was washing up at the sink.

 

“Kip Lee Haymes,” she said sternly as her blue eyes flashed, “will you settle down and eat.  I didn’t stand over a hot stove just to watch you play with your food.”

 

“But, Ma, they should be gettin’ here an’ it’s been five days.”  Fear darted in his equally blue eyes.  “You don’t think maybe somethin’ happened to ‘em, do you?”

 

“No, dear,” she said as she turned back to the sink.  With her back to her son she didn’t have to keep her own fear from her face.  “I have no doubt that herding that many cows takes time.  They’ll be here.”  Her soft brows lowered, and her hands went still.  “Please let them be all right,” she thought.  “Now eat you dinner before it gets any colder than it already is.”

 

She’d just gone back about her chore, and Kip was still picking at his food when the sound of riders came into the front yard.

 

Kip’s eyes went wide enough to pop as his mother spun around, soapy water dripping from her hands.  “They’re here!” he said as he dropped his fork and bounded from the chair.

 

EIGHT

 

Kip darted out onto the front porch as the men were stepping down.  Becky came out behind him, drying her hands on her apron, and relief washed over her delicate features.

 

“Pa!” Kip squealed as he dashed down the steps.  “Pa!”

 

Lee went to his knees as his son ran into his father’s waiting arms, and he hugged his boy.  He was home and nothing had ever felt so good.  His eyes rose and met with his wife’s and a smile passed between them that betrayed itself for what it was.  Becky was always so nice to come home to and this time was no different.

 

“Where’re the cows?”

 

“We decided to settle ‘em in their new pasture before we came on to the house.”

 

“How many did you get?”

 

“One hundred head, and we didn’t lose a one along the way.”

 

“A hundred head?  Wow.”

 

“And I brought somebody with me.”

 

Adam stepped behind Lee, and the boy’s eyes widened even more.  “Stretch!”   Adam stooped as Kip ran to him.  “I was afraid you wouldn’t come.”

 

“I had to.  I’ve got a special friend here that I wanted to see.”  It was good to feel the boy in his arms.  Kip had been a large part of his life and now they were together again, even if it was for only a short time.

 

+++++

 

Ben and Lee stepped out onto the front porch as the crickets chirped their soft melody to the accompaniment of the night breezes.  A gentle rustling sound wrapped around them as the leaves brushed against one another.  Men’s laughter spilled out into the darkness from the barn’s partially open door along with the glow of lantern light.  The Cartwrights and their hands would all be sleeping out here since there wasn’t room in the house, though nobody seemed to care.  And right now nothing could dampen the men’s enthusiasm; they were headed for a night in Bantree as promised and Joe and Hoss were going with them.

 

“This is a good place you’ve got here, Lee,” Ben said as he looked up at the starry sky.  “And someday I believe you’ll turn it into one of the finest spreads in these parts.”

 

“Well, with Ponderosa stock and a choice bull,” Lee said as he lit his pipe, “things are looking better.  Of course, without my wife and son with me there really wouldn’t be any joy in it.”

 

“I know what you mean,” Ben said as he turned to him and leaned sideways against a porch post and crossed his arms over his chest.  “My sons made even the hardest days worth it.  When you have somebody to build for and share with it always makes what you accomplish so much sweeter.”  He grinned as he looked around at his eldest son sitting in the grass under one of the trees, Kip sitting next to him.  “I can see why Adam is so fond of your son.  He’s a fine boy, and he’s going to make a fine man.”

 

“We both have sons that we can be proud of.”

 

“That we do, Lee.  That we do.”

 

Kip sat with his legs crossed in front of him and leaned back on his hands with his arms behind him, emulating Adam. “Stretch?”

 

“Yeah, Kip.”

 

“Why do you have to leave tomorrow?  Why can’t you stay for a while?”

 

“I wish I could, buddy, but I need to get back.  There’s still a lot to be done before the snow sets in, and Pa needs me.”  He plucked a blade of grass and began toying with it.  “You know how that is.  Your own pa needs you here.”

 

“I can’t do much, not like you can.”

 

“When I was your age I could ride and rope and help with the few cows we had.”  Adam grinned at the recollection and continued playing absentmindedly with the piece of grass.  “Your father tells me you’re good with horses.”

 

“I like to ride, but we only have two and after you took the big gray one that only left Pa’s.”

 

Adam grinned mischievously and hid it with his hand.  “I just remembered that I have something I wantta show you,” he said as he gave the boy a jab.  “It’s in the barn.”

 

“What is it?”

 

“Well, let’s go find out.”

 

Kip was having trouble keeping up with Adam’s long legged stride as they crossed the yard.  As they went into the barn the men were still sprucing up for their night out.  Hair was being slicked down and fresh shirts that didn’t smell like horses and cattle put on.  The ribald camaraderie toned down the minute they saw Kip.

 

“Say, Adam, why don’t you come with us,” Joe said, brushing his unruly dark brown hair.

 

“Yeah, brother, you ain’t been to town with us in a long time,” Hoss threw in.  “You need to cut loose a little.”

 

“Thanks,” Adam said as he gave Hoss a slap on the arm, “but me and Kip need to catch up.  And we have things to take care of, so you go head and have a good time.”

 

“We sure will,” Joe said as the light caught the devious glint in his eyes.  “And Chris is gonna have a good time at the Banning’s.”

 

“Ah, Joe, cut it out,” Chris said as his face reddened.

 

Laughter broke out as Kip followed Adam back to the farthest stall.  Inside was a little bronze-colored mare contentedly munching her oats.  Kip didn’t think he’d ever seen a more beautiful horse.  Her long mane and tale were just the same shade as her satiny coat, and her ears were perked forward on her head.  He wanted to reach out and touch her so bad it made his fingertips ache.  

 

“Her name’s Nugget,” Adam said as he stroked her neck.  “She has a hurt leg and it’s a long way back to the Ponderosa, so I thought I’d leave ‘er here while it gets better.  She’s gonna need a lot of taking care of, and I thought you’d like to do it.”

 

“Would I ever.”

 

“And then when she gets better… she’s yours.”

 

“Mine?”  Kip couldn’t believe what was happening.  “You mean you’re really giving her to me for my very own?”

 

“I think if a man’s gonna help his father he needs his own horse.  My first one was a mare, her name was Little Bit.”

 

“I’ve never seen such a horse.  She’s just the prettiest thing.  And I promise I’ll take real good care of ‘er.” 

 

“I know you will.”

 

Then his questioning eyes turned to Adam.  “Is it all right if I touch ‘er?”

 

“Well, since you’re gonna be taking care of her, she might as well start getting used to you, don’t you think?”

 

Timidly, Kip put his hand against her shoulder, and she was like silk.  Someone had combed her, and she shimmered in the warm light like something that would come from a gold mine.  He ran his hand along her strong back and could feel the firm muscles that would support a saddle.  She was the most wonderful horse he’d ever seen, and she was his. 

 

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Adam was standing in the doorway looking out into the night, and his mind seemed to be miles away.  Since they had settled in Ben had noticed the far off, distant look growing in his son’s eyes.  The old unease from the trail had returned full force as Ben watched him now.  He couldn’t help but wonder if his eldest was recalling a time when he’d spent a night much like this one in this very barn.  Or had it gone further back to the deadly, unprovoked attack that had nearly separated him from life and a son from his father?  Ben watched as the lamplight played over the side of Adam’s face with its strongly defined features and wondered.  This son had always been a traveler since he was a baby, and he couldn’t help wonder if the urge to move on was getting a grip on him as Ben had feared it would someday.

 

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It was late when the men blustered in from their fling in Bantree.  Ben – given the privilege of the cot – and Adam had long since gone to bed.  They tried being quiet, but asking that of a drunken man was like asking for the moon.  And with seven of them – Chris being the only sober one – well pixilated one would stand a better chance of getting the latter.  Grant Aikman tripped over a hay bale just inside the door and someone shushed him.  Muffled giggles and snorts rippled through the silence, and the sounds of crunching straw beneath boots mingled in with them, and the scent of whiskey vied with the other smells common to a barn.  They hadn’t gotten far when a rich baritone came at them from the darkness and froze them in their tracks.

 

“Having a little trouble being quiet?”  The orangey glow of the lamp illuminated everything as it was turned up, revealing Adam standing next to it and Ben sitting on the cot.  “I don’t think I need to ask if you had a good time, do I.”

 

Ben knew that his sons sometimes drank to excess, Joe especially, but that didn’t make him like or condone it any better.  His dark eyes drilled in on his more than slightly inebriated sons, and they colored up under his steady, unrelenting gaze.  He knew this would happen by letting them go into town with the men, but after June he wasn’t in a position to say anything.  He’d let his grief take control and drive him to drinking and not simply for one night.  These boys were just letting off some steam and hadn’t caused any harm.  “We need to get an early start in the morning, and you need to get to bed and sleep off your good time.  So turn in and do it as quietly as you can.”

 

After a round of polite ‘Yes, sirs’ Joe and Hoss, and the others were quite docile as they started getting ready for bed.  Ben exchanged a look with his eldest and couldn’t miss the evil glint in Adam’s eyes.  He found himself wondering what his oldest son had in store for his brothers and found himself already feeling sorry for them.

 

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The sun still hadn’t peeked above the horizon, though the sky had begun to glow as a harbinger of its arrival, when the men in the barn were making ready for their journey back to the Ponderosa.  It was quiet and faces were long and eyes dulled.  Only Ben, Adam and Chris seemed to have any energy.

 

Adam stepped up behind his brothers and slapped a hand on their backs and they grimaced.  “You boys about ready?” he said exuberantly and raised his head and sniffed the air.  “That smells like ham, and I could eat an ox, horns and all.  And three fried eggs with the yolks runny enough for sopping.”  He smacked his lips.  “Now you finish getting packed, and I’ll meet you outside.”  He gave them an even harder slap.  “It’s been too long since I’ve had one of Becky Haymes fine breakfasts.”

 

As he strode out two pairs of agony-laced eyes followed him, and a hint of disgruntlement lived in their depths.

 

“One o’ these days I’m gonna git ‘im back for all the times he’s done that,” Hoss said as he winced and rubbed his temple.  “My head feels like it’s fair gonna fall off an’ he didn’t help it none.” 

 

“Why not today?  And we still owe ‘im for that little bit with the red pepper.”

 

Hoss had seen that devious look on his little brother’s face enough to know that Adam’s payback was at hand.  And he couldn’t help finding himself savoring the idea.  “How you gonna do it, Joe?” he asked in a low voice.

 

“I haven’t figured that out yet, but you’ll be the first to know when I do.”  His scheming green eyes went back to the door.  “And Adam’ll be the second.”

 

NINE

 

Joe settled the saddle lightly on Sport’s back and carefully pulled the cinch around his belly.  The horse looked around at him and Joe gave him a gentle pat on the withers.  “It’s all right, boy.” 

 

Hoss was keeping watch at the door for their brother.  If this thing was to work they couldn’t get caught, and as shrewd as Adam was they had to be on their toes.  “Here he comes, Joe.”

 

Joe was just bringing the fender from over the seat as Adam came in bright and chipper.  “Well, you two look better since you had something to eat.”

 

Hoss’ nose wrinkled, and he rubbed his still queasy stomach.  Both he and Joe had only had coffee, and Adam knew it.  “I didn’t have that much of an appetite.”

 

“Oh,” Adam said innocently.  “Well, you missed some good cookin’.”

 

“I saddled Sport for you,” Joe said as his brother came toward him.

 

“Well, thanks, Joe.  Any special reason?”

 

“Do I need a reason to wantta be nice to my big brother?”

 

“No,” Adam said as one eyebrow rose, “but it helps.”

 

Joe laughed but it quickly died, and he massaged the side of his head.  “Here you go, brother.”

 

Adam took the reins from him and eyed his little brother warily and then his horse.  He couldn’t exactly put a finger on it, but Joe was up to something and whatever it was Hoss was in it up to his neck.  “Thanks, Joe.  Now Pa’s waiting, so don’t take too long.”

 

“All right, we’ll be right out,” Joe said.

 

Adam watched him was but caught no sign, but as he started out Hoss’ eyes darted to Joe.  Now he was certain that something was going on with these two, and he felt like it had something to do with his horse.  He had a few ideas but he wouldn’t be sure until he got outside.

 

Hoss and Joe exchanged furtive giggles and slaps on the back.

 

“Now we’d better get out there,” Joe said.  “We don’t want to miss the fun.”

 

Good-byes had already been said and everyone was ready to mount up, except for Chris.   As Adam turned to his horse an idea flittered through his mind.  He glanced over at his brothers who had just come out with their horses; he knew, and no one had to tell him.  “Once more into the breach,” he said under his breath.   He slipped his foot into the stirrup and eased down in the saddle, and the minute he did Sport shot straight up with a wild squeal.  His fingers bunched on the reins, and his knees tightened against the horse’s sides.

 

“Adam!” Ben shouted.

 

Everything became absolute pandemonium as the frantic horse seemed to be trying to rid itself of its rider.  Not since he’d been broke had Sport behaved this way.  The big chestnut continued to squeal and push off the ground amid shouts from the men.  Lee grabbed his son and pulled him out of the way just as the animal came down by the boy.

 

Ben couldn’t miss the fact that Hoss and Joe seemed to be enjoying themselves a little too much.  After what had happened in camp when Adam had laced their food with red pepper this didn’t surprise him.  His coffee eyes bore in on them and they began to squirm under his stern gaze.  Another mad squeal brought his attention around as Sport bucked his way toward the barn, his eldest son clinging to him like a burr.  A burr!  His eyes bordered on onyx as he looked around at them again.

 

Sport disappeared into the barn, taking Adam with him.  It was frighteningly quiet until a loud crash broke the silence and breaths were held, but not for long.  Sport bounced back out with Adam still franticly hanging on.

 

Men scattered, some taking cover under the wagon, as the horse tore through.  Hop Sing, quarreling in Cantonese, dashed under next to Wes as things got a little too close for comfort.

 

As Sport came around again Adam caught a jarred glimpse of his brothers.  Hoss’ expression had begun to register concern but Joe’s face was a little too smug for Adam’s liking.  An amber spark glittered in his eyes and determination set like bronze.  He’d teach his little brother a thing or two and hoped he didn’t kill himself in the doing.  The resolve to stay aboard had changed into something completely different.  His fingers loosened on the reins, and his legs relaxed against the horse’s sides.  Sport came down and Adam found himself jolted from the saddle.  He braced as best he could but – either way – it was going to be a hard landing.  He hit the ground with a grunt and wasn’t aware when Sport’s slashing rear hooves missed his head by no more than an inch.  His arms gave way, and he fell forward and simply laid there, his panting breath stirring up puffs of dust.  He could get up on his own – maybe – but Joe’s lesson wasn’t complete yet.

 

Ben was instantly at his side, hovering over him protectively.  “Adam, are you all right?”  But Adam was simply too winded to speak.  His dark eyes rose to greet his father’s, and the look in them told Ben what he was doing.  He was going to put this silly competition to rest for good and all.  “Are you all right, son?”

 

Still, Adam didn’t answer.  The air had been knocked from his lungs, and his voice had been taken along with it.  He reached out to his father, and Ben helped him to sit up.  He bent his legs and leaned forward against them.  The strong hand on his back was comforting as it rubbed in circles.  As he sat there he became aware of a different presence at his other side, and he looked around into Joe’s troubled green eyes.  Adam patted him on the knee and grinned reassuringly.  “I’m all right,” he said roughly. 

 

“Adam, I put a cocklebur under your saddle.”

 

A warm light glowed in Adam’s face and the sun twinkled in his eyes.  “I know.”

 

“You know?  Well, how long did…?”

 

Adam’s mouth parted, revealing his teeth, and he gave his little brother a wink and a pat.

 

“All right,” Ben barked as he and Joe helped Adam to his feet, “this is enough nonsense for one day.  Now let’s get mounted up and head for home.  There’s still plenty to do back on the Ponderosa.”  He began slapping the dirt from his son’s shirt and his expression softened.  “Are you sure you’re all right, son?”

 

“I’m all right, Pa.  And after I get that thing out from under Sport’s saddle I’ll feel a lot better.”

 

“Let me do it, Adam,” Joe said.

 

Adam simply nodded as his breath was finally beginning to catch up. 

 

After that things began to settle and it didn’t take long to get mounted up and ready to head out, again.  This time they only had the remuda – minus Nugget, the big dapple and Dunny – to get back home.  The Haymes’ and Chris stood at the front steps waving as they went out to the road and turned for the fork.  Adam and Joe were bringing up the rear of the herd and they turned in their saddles and waved back.

 

“Adam.”

 

“Yeah, Joe.”

 

“Do you think you’ll ever come back here?”

 

“I don’t know, maybe.  But now I have more of a reason.”

 

“Kip?”

 

Adam looked around at him.  “Kip and Chris and old pain that needs to be faced.  Now let’s go home, little brother.”  He gave Joe a punch in the shoulder.  “Oh, and Joe, the next time you think about putting a burr under my saddle, do me a favor.”

 

“What’s that?”

 

“Don’t,” he said as he rubbed the small of his back and grimaced. 

 

Joe’s grin split his face, and he punched Adam back.  “All right, just don’t you put anymore red pepper in my food.” 

 

“It’s a deal,” Adam said as he held his right hand out.

 

They shook on it then with a laugh they galloped off to join the others.  They had three more days of hard riding ahead of them and plenty of time for being brothers.  And maybe they could think of something to do to Hoss, since he hadn’t shaken hands on any agreement.

 

THE END  

 

 

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